Everyone should experience walking their journey. Most are afraid and at the same time anxious until faced with the opportunity and they stand still not knowing which way to go, feeling overwhelmed. I know this because I was that person. I put my journey on hold so many times thinking I would go back to it at another time. I did it on more than one occassion, because I got comfortable with where I was (like so many other people.) Only one thing...God said it was time and when he speaks you listen. My journey did not start a year ago, two years ago...no my journey started years ago..its just that over the past two to three years my journey has strengthened.

Along your journey there are many levels and at each level there is a lesson to be learned, people that you will meet, and places you will go. What you have to do is be ok with all you will encounter knowing and being ok with the fact that there will be people you meet that serves a purpose for just that moment and people that are there with you and for you and will be standing next to you throughout...Knowing that you are supposed to learn a lesson and keep it moving and not allow someone or something to keep you in a place of hurt, pain for long...just keep it moving. Knowing that God will send you to places you never thought you would go to...Knowing that it is not to be questioned..just go and experience your journey. I have had the opportunity to experience all of this and I am still experiencing it. I am doing things that I myself would have never thought possible mainly because of I was stuck in an office all day and I was complacent, I was comfortable with my life. But God wasn't...he tried to show me time after time that I was NOT where I needed to be, he had a bigger plan and pretty soon I would see and feel his RAFT...

     A little over a year ago I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and then shortly after I was diagnosed with Lupus. I was ok one day and the next day I could not move. My legs, hands and feet were swollen and I was sore to the touch. It hurt to put on clothes or pull covers over me. I got to a place where I could move and I asked God what he was trying to tell me. And believe it or not, he answered me...it was the first time I heard "THE VOICE", he simply said "WRITE"...and I did and the more I wrote about my experience with Lupus the more I started to heal from within...I started having nightly conversations with him and although the conversations were not complete I would just recieve words...I got " SHED WHAT IS NOT OF ME." I did not ask questions...I did exactly what he asked me to...I gave up a relationship I had been in for 2 1/2 years and some friendships. The next day looked and felt like a new day. It was much brighter...I felt that I was in a dark place for about a month. Things just started to fall into place.

     When I tell people what I have, it is hard because I don't look like I have anything. My mindset has changed completely. That dream that I was trying to put on hold is no longer on hold..I am manifesting things into my life all the time..things I would have thought were not at all possible. People who are just meeting me and finding that I have Lupus think that when I say I am in pain...I am looking for pity..NO, quite the opposite...I look for your understanding that I have good days and I have bad days...I don't know what I am going to feel like from day to day. I use my pain as my information source at times...I push myself and forget to slow down...and my pain is a way to let me know to slow it down. The mind is something powerful, and yes it can heal...but every now and then the pain returns and reminds me that it is still there.

     My hope and wish is that everyone will experience their own awakening. I see more and more people are experiencing an awakening as they should. I know that not everyone will do it at the same time..everyone has their time, I just hope that when presented with the opportunity they walk straight through it...finding their way on their own journey.....