I found myself in an obstacle course all week, I felt like I was hit with challenges that challenged me deep within. For instance my son, his name is Terelle he's 14 and will be the big 15 in October, well hes autistic and lets just say this week has been a hecktic one. I handled the issues with his temper tantrums well but saturday I cracked but amazingly it wasn't like it usually is, I was more in control till he screamed at me that he hated me and wished I died. It hurt I don't think anyone could ever hurt me with those words like my child did. Yes he has issues but still it felt like a sword cut through my heart. Instead of crying and gettind depressed about it I went deep within myself to try to innerstand why simple words would strike me so hard and why I allowed my vibrations to take a hit when I know he probably didn't mean it. Love is a word I put to much meaning into abd hate to me is the ultamite blow to feelings thats the only way I can explain it I don't think in thos vibrations w society anymore because I detatched but within my home I didn't think I had to, well I'm still workin on me deep within I don't think this blog is as good as my others but its what my spirit feels like doing getting all the emotional garbage out to make room for stronger vibrations. I'm glad I can navigate through this as strong as I have because the old me used to hold stuff in, get depressed, cry and be so miserable inside. I refuse to allow anything to have that kind of control over me I am a Super Hero and I will over come this challengeing moment. Its all 13LOVE, RA-SPECT & HONOR.