When you know the greatness and the hard work that you put into something YOU KNOW that the turn around is gonna be DIVINE! But that PROCESS is a BIATCH! I don't like the feeling of the PROCESS because it is very uncomfortable, I know its Necessary and without it I could not reap the benefit of my Life work.
While I was meditating this morning I said the words I AM PRESENT NOW! I had to say that to myself because I felt myself in the past or in the future, I wasn't comfortable in the present. The Process is where you get the MEAT of your life, your SOUL FOOD. The Process is when your thinking, okay when is this SHIT gonna be over so I could get to the good stuff. I have to release the anticipation of what is coming so that I could inner-stand this process of what my life is. Understanding this part is essential to my purpose, it only matters to me but the output of that realization is a benefit to all that surround me.
I want to Live in Happiness and BLISS all the time, who doesn't, it is all about redefining that happiness and bliss I AM Present NOW, helps me to remember to eat the Soul Food Absorb the texture, the taste and how it feels while its going down, so that I can birth clarity and consciousness of all that I AM. I AM the Ying & the Yang of my life, in a constant search to balance myself. No matter how many people are around you its a road you walk ALONE. My perception of my life is what makes or breaks me.
I made a statement that was VERY DRAMATIC I said if it wasn't for my children I would be GONE, out of here LIFE TAKEN! Then I thought about what I said Then I thought about my brother who took his life and is still feeling the residual of his soul experiences even after 3D Death (he communicates with me) Then I thought about How my ass was copin out cause I KNOW that I would never KiLL MYSELF so I say, "good thing my kids are here or else I'd be DONE!" Yeah right! I also thought about how if I did it I could just come back and start over, but I would just pick up where I left off anyway so what is the Point? The point is to Live my Life Knowing that the Process is part of the Blessing.
These things happen all the time Ya'll We are never DONE as long as I have breath in my body I will experience this PROCESS it is Never ending and always promising, of course depending on how I Perceive it. I AM Present NOW and in Every moment I will choose to be Present.