Coming into the year 2012 with My Eyes WIDE OPEN! I accept Where I AM, I UNDERSTAND that My Experience is what I have created with my Thoughts and Emotions. I KNOW that Whatever I WANT I can have. I show the world what I want through my actions not my MOUTH. I Talk to GOD through my FEELINGS not my WORDS. I LIVE by FAITH, I know that what My EYES see is not REAL it's just little glimpses of other peoples reality. I FEEL SO FREE!

 We live in a world were people are constantly seeking THINGS OUTSIDE of themselves to make them FEEL GOOD. It is such a simple concept to look within and start at ONE with YOURSELF but the problem is, We don't know who we are! We think we do because we have friends and family members that approve of who we are, we belong to groups that accept us, we have THINGS that DEFINE US, WE have ALLOWED this to be WHO WE ARE and if just don't feel Right at all innately we start searching for FREEDOM!

This year I Was Evicted from my home, I lost my Family, I lost most of my Friends, My business made NO MONEY and I would have to say that this has been the most PROFOUND year of my life. I let go of everything I THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO HOLD ON TO. We are enslaved from birth, We spend our entire lives attempting to break free from the chains that bind us not recognizing that we are putting those chains on ourselves. THE WORLD presents us with thoughts and experiences that don't belong to us we are shown ideas of what life should be according to an outside source, anything that is not within yOU is an outside source.

My Parents were outside sources that programmed me to believe what they believed because it was the truth as they understood it. As my mind began to develop and I started entertaining my own ideas and thoughts, that caused separation with me and my parents, which seems to be the case in most families when you discover that you are the ONLY ONE that has AUTHORITY over YOU! My siblings were outside sources who suggested that I believe that being an older sibling automatically makes you smarter so the youngest is the dumbest PERIOD. I was also under a subconscious hold to family. I was taught that Family sticks together NO MATTER what unless you are disliked by 1 or more siblings or in some cases the Core Child (the Favorite) Which in that case if they don't like YOU, Your just assed out all together.

We are taught that if you don't have enough people to back you up in your beliefs, then THEY DON'T MATTER so we spend our lives attempting to convince others that we are WORTHY of their Love and attention. We try to be like people so they could LIKE us. We Conform to belief systems that WE DON'T AGREE with just so we can belong because we know that if we don't go along with the group we will be ALONE! No ONE wants to be ALONE!

I had to make a decision about the things that matter the most to me.