I have a great concept about myself and my idea of how loyalty is displayed, & my idea of how it should really be. I've been really picking this one apart, and putting it back together again & I think I'm getting it as a matter of fact I am inner-standing and over-standing the energy of loyalty. I'm really getting myself together, and I will admit its fun and at times I'd stop and say damn girl you was a mess we had a lot of work to do, but know I can see clearer than ever, the point of it all. Loyalty to me was something I looked for in others if you said you were my friend, or was a family member I just assumed you would be loyal to me because I would be nothing but that to you. I just assumed hey I'm a good person I treat people right so hey that's how I'll be treated in return. I was wrong about that big time. I finally figured out loyalty plays out in reality just like love does you have to care for yourself before anyone else will value or care for you, and I was not loyal to myself at all before, and sometimes I still catch myself being disloyal. I think I'm pretty one day, then the next day I'm the same person looking at myself in the mirror saying I look ok, but I need I need to loose some weight , or I'd fix my hair so pretty and know I look good, but ask someone for their opinion on me. How can I have others value me or think positive of me all the time if I'm not doing it first myself. I'm looking at things on a higher level then ever before, yes I think a lot but its a requirement at this present moment because I really feel I'm trying to go to a higher relm & in order for me to get there I must go through these different aspects of me and build up true strengths. I'm a very free person I can share my inner most personsal experiences with others because I'm not ashamed of who I am, or what I've experienced because that's part of what life is about experiences in our journeys to our purpose. Life is what you make it if I suck all the goodness out of me and give it to everyone else, and never keep any of the good aspects of me for myself how can I expect happiness, love, loyalty or ra-spect. I'm doing the things that my guides show me in different ways I take every direction as a part of my journey because as soon as I start working on something within me to build self empowerment, it gets relayed to me in another way that what I'm working on within myself is the right direction. I think its amazing how I can be this individual being and have so much spirit in me to do so many things that I was once afraid to challenge myself in because of this I am able to look myself in the eyes, and say I love you more then life because the spirit within me is shinning outwards, and what I'm putting into myself is manifesting in to my perfect reality. LOYALTY, RASPECT, HONOR &LOVE these are energies that if you don't have them un-conditionally for yourself, you'll never get from anyone or even the Universe because to receive these energies I must show them strong to myself.
This was on my mind know its not BOOM & POW! I hope you enjoy this blog as much as I enjoyed writing it.